The meaning behind Abmon deepens as my understanding of myself and my art expands. It reflects how life imitates art, with each stroke upon the canvas of existence and each phase within life adding layers of meaning and complexity. Abmon is not just a creative persona; it is a testament to my resilience, an ode to my journey from darkness to light, and a celebration of finding peace amidst chaos. Through Abmon, I invite the world to witness this transformative journey, encouraging a collective embrace of simplicity, existence, and the relentless pursuit of understanding and peace.
Abmon, was born out of ABstract MONdays, a project I started after my time at Wintec. This endeavor emerged from the existential disconnect between the soul-crushing routine of a Monday and the liberating essence of the weekend. Abmon captures my transformation of oppressive societal norms into a canvas of freedom, rest, and enjoyment. It serves as a reminder to both the world and myself to embrace the simplicity of existence and to carve a path through life's intricate maze.
Abstract Mondays came to me during a moment of deep self-reflection while painting under a tree at a house where I lived through a deeply traumatic phase in my life. This period was marked by a loving yet ultimately unfulfilling and toxic relationship, a demanding 30-hour workweek at New World, and an exhausting daily commute of nearly two hours. I had isolated myself from friends and family, smoked excessively, and felt stagnant, unaware that I was depressed. Amidst staring at branches with a sense of foreboding, a glimmer of solace emerged in the thought, "Hey, at least I can paint on a Monday." This simple yet profound thought became a beacon of hope and creativity, guiding me through my journey.
Abstract Mondays represents my chaotic and directionless pursuit of understanding, a raw and unfiltered expression of self amidst the choas. In contrast, Abmon embodies a more refined and peaceful state of understoodness. It retains the core values of Abstract Mondays but distills them into a simpler, more serene form. Linguistically and metaphorically, Abmon signifies my progression from chaos to peace, from pre-therapy turmoil to post-therapy tranquility. This evolution mirrors my personal growth, highlighting a narrative of chaotic self-destruction transitioning to peaceful self-preservation.
